John
11:1-45
11Now a certain man
was ill, Lazarus of Bethany, the village of Mary and her sister Martha. 2Mary
was the one who anointed the Lord with perfume and wiped his feet with her
hair; her brother Lazarus was ill. 3So the sisters sent a
message to Jesus, “Lord, he whom you love is ill.” 4But when
Jesus heard it, he said, “This illness does not lead to death; rather it is for
God’s glory, so that the Son of God may be glorified through it.”5Accordingly,
though Jesus loved Martha and her sister and Lazarus, 6after
having heard that Lazarus was ill, he stayed two days longer in the place where
he was. 7Then after this he said to the disciples, “Let us go
to Judea again.” 8The disciples said to him, “Rabbi, the Jews
were just now trying to stone you, and are you going there again?” 9Jesus
answered, “Are there not twelve hours of daylight? Those who walk during the
day do not stumble, because they see the light of this world. 10But
those who walk at night stumble, because the light is not in them.” 11After
saying this, he told them, “Our friend Lazarus has fallen asleep, but I am
going there to awaken him.” 12The disciples said to him, “Lord,
if he has fallen asleep, he will be all right.” 13Jesus,
however, had been speaking about his death, but they thought that he was
referring merely to sleep. 14Then Jesus told them plainly,
“Lazarus is dead. 15For your sake I am glad I was not there, so
that you may believe. But let us go to him.” 16Thomas, who was
called the Twin, said to his fellow disciples, “Let us also go, that we may die
with him.”
17When Jesus arrived,
he found that Lazarus had already been in the tomb four days. 18Now
Bethany was near Jerusalem, some two miles away, 19and many of
the Jews had come to Martha and Mary to console them about their brother. 20When
Martha heard that Jesus was coming, she went and met him, while Mary stayed at
home. 21Martha said to Jesus, “Lord, if you had been here, my
brother would not have died. 22But even now I know that God
will give you whatever you ask of him.” 23Jesus said to her,
“Your brother will rise again.” 24Martha said to him, “I know
that he will rise again in the resurrection on the last day.” 25Jesus
said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life. Those who believe in me, even
though they die, will live, 26and everyone who lives and
believes in me will never die. Do you believe this?” 27She said
to him, “Yes, Lord, I believe that you are the Messiah, the Son of God, the one
coming into the world.” 28When she had said this, she went back
and called her sister Mary, and told her privately, “The Teacher is here and is
calling for you.” 29And when she heard it, she got up quickly
and went to him. 30Now Jesus had not yet come to the village,
but was still at the place where Martha had met him. 31The Jews
who were with her in the house, consoling her, saw Mary get up quickly and go
out. They followed her because they thought that she was going to the tomb to
weep there. 32When Mary came where Jesus was and saw him, she
knelt at his feet and said to him, “Lord, if you had been here, my brother
would not have died.”
33When Jesus saw her
weeping, and the Jews who came with her also weeping, he was greatly disturbed
in spirit and deeply moved. 34He said, “Where have you laid
him?” They said to him, “Lord, come and see.”35Jesus began to
weep. 36So the Jews said, “See how he loved him!” 37But
some of them said, “Could not he who opened the eyes of the blind man have kept
this man from dying?” 38Then Jesus, again greatly disturbed,
came to the tomb. It was a cave, and a stone was lying against it. 39Jesus
said, “Take away the stone.” Martha, the sister of the dead man, said to him,
“Lord, already there is a stench because he has been dead four days.”40Jesus
said to her, “Did I not tell you that if you believed, you would see the glory
of God?” 41So they took away the stone. And Jesus looked upward
and said, “Father, I thank you for having heard me. 42I knew
that you always hear me, but I have said this for the sake of the crowd
standing here, so that they may believe that you sent me.” 43When
he had said this, he cried with a loud voice, “Lazarus, come out!” 44The
dead man came out, his hands and feet bound with strips of cloth, and his face
wrapped in a cloth. Jesus said to them, “Unbind him, and let him go.”
45Many of the Jews
therefore, who had come with Mary and had seen what Jesus did, believed in him.
(This is the Word of God for the people of God. Thanks be to God.)
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Lord, if
you had been here, my brother would not have died. Wring those words out and
you’ll see so much anger dripping from them, it will puddle on the floor. Mary
and Martha know that Jesus has the power to heal Lazarus, a man he professes to
love, and he just . . . doesn’t. God makes all these grand promises about
loving us and providing for us and being enough for us, and when we felt like
we needed God more than ever before . . . silence.
Does this
story feel familiar to you? I don’t mean, have you heard it? I mean, have you felt
it? Have you ever needed God only to find . . . silence?
I remember
the week I moved to Atlanta to go to seminary. I drove my old pickup truck; it
was huge and smelled bad, but I loved that thing. I think my parents drove a U-Haul with my bed
and tv and dresser and the like, and we came straight to Atlanta from Memphis.
We pulled up to my first apartment and got everything unloaded the very first
day—my mom was insistent that when we went to go get food, that she stay behind
to set up my bookshelves. She wanted to get me set up before they went home,
which they did the next morning.
And I came
out of the apartment a couple of days later and realized I’d forgotten where I
parked. I looked everywhere but I couldn’t find my truck. I thought, maybe I
walked home last night? Or maybe I just didn’t see it? But of course, somebody
had stolen it.
And it was
the very next day, I’ll never forget this, it was the very next day that I got
out of the shower to see that I’d missed a number of calls on my cell phone,
all from my dad, and when I finally got ahold of him, he said, “Come home. Your
mother has had an aneurysm. Her surgery is tomorrow. Hurry.”
And you
start to ask questions when that kind of thing happens, you know, about what
God is trying to tell you. Here I have uprooted myself to try and dedicate my
life to you, O Lord, and if you had been here, my brother would not have died.
Mom had a
successful surgery, eventually got better, and I bought another vehicle. Life
goes on. That kind of visceral suffering doesn’t last forever. But it can feel
that way, when the God who we worship and who promises us new life feels as far
away as the farthest star.
There’s
this story that came out in the months after the moon landing in 1969, that
Buzz Aldrin had sort of hidden a little chalice, with a small little vial of
wine and a Communion wafer that he’d had his pastor bless before the launch.
And in the time between landing on the moon and getting out to go exploring, he
took Communion on the surface of the moon, and while I am moved by that act of
devotion, it mostly just reminds me of what can feel like on the journey of
faith, like Jesus might as well be on the moon, like he’s so concerned with
this little thimbleful of wine and this little Communion wafer than he is about
my problems, my fears, the evils I see in the world: things like hunger, and
war, and slavery. It makes me feel like God isn’t paying attention to me, to
those of us down here on earth.
And you know when I feel the most that way? Maybe this will sound weird,
but I can feel the most hopeless when I consider the state of the Christian
church. Sometimes the people who act the worst are the people who profess to
love God the most. I have a friend at a church conference this week who posted
this quote on Twitter: the church is the only place where we let the unhealthy
people scare off the healthy people. And you’ve heard me say that the church is
a hospital for sinners, but a hospital is supposed to be a place that makes you
well, not a place where you go for the sole purpose of spreading your disease.
Did you hear about the controversy at World Vision a couple of weeks
ago? World Vision is this awesome organization that lets people sponsor children
who then are better fed, do better in school, get fewer diseases, and end up
being productive members of society. And the whole idea of World Vision is that
this is what Jesus calls us to do, which of course it is. God calls us to help
the most vulnerable among us, and while we may argue about the responsibility
adults have to act right, surely we can agree on children. Surely we can agree
that God calls us to help children who are hungry, children who are literally
starving to death. And World Vision has taken up this mantle and done it with
distinction, across the church, across all sorts of ideological lines, because
at least we can agree that God wants us to care for children.
And a couple of weeks ago, World Vision decided that since they were
involved with a number of Christian denominations with varying beliefs, they
were going to change one small part of their hiring policies that said that
they would not employ gay people. That was it. They didn’t change their
statement of faith, which said scripture is divinely inspired and infallible.
Richard Stearns, who is the World Vision CEO, made it a point to say that they
weren’t endorsing same-gender marriage. They were just saying they’d be open to
hiring gay people.
I want you to know that in the twenty-four hours after that
announcement, World Vision’s donors were so angry that 10,000 of them dropped
their sponsorships. Ten thousand children just left in the cold, without food,
without clean water, without adequate shelter and schooling. Ten thousand
children. It was such a significant number that within 48 hours, World Vision
announced that they were changing their policy back. I would have done the same
thing. Feeding children is far, far, far more important than the employment
issue, though I’d argue that we ought not discriminate in any respect. A few
folks called to reinstate their sponsorships, but the majority didn’t. And so I
will be honest, when I see that ten thousand children lost sponsorships,
because people who profess to follow Jesus decided that an employment policy
that allowed for the employment of gay people was more important than feeding
ten thousand children, I just wanted to cry. I just wanted to weep. What is
wrong with us as humans, that this sort of thing could remotely be all right?
And this is the mood I was in when I came to the scripture this week,
like we’ve put all this energy and time and money and love into the institution
of the church, and all it takes is one silly HR policy change to undo all that
work, to kick ten thousand children back into hunger, back into hopelessness.
Lord, if you had been here . . .
Mary and Martha, friends of Jesus, got word to him that their brother,
Lazarus, was near death. The only thing that would save him was a visit from
Jesus, and of course Jesus would come. He loved Lazarus.
And yet . . . he didn’t. Jesus did not come. In their moment of need, of
desperation, Mary and Martha called for Jesus, but he did not come, and Lazarus
died.
After Lazarus’s death, Jesus made his way to Bethany, to the home of
Mary and Martha, and when Mary heard he was near, she ran to him, weeping,
and—I don’t know how you can read this in any tone other than seething
anger—Lord, if you had been here, my brother would not have died.
And Jesus saw her crying, and he was moved by her grief, and he did
something pretty incredible, when you think about it. He cried. He wept. He was
so disturbed by the pain she was experiencing that he, himself, felt that pain,
and the very savior of the world wept.
It’s revolutionary, and we sometimes just pretend all it is is the
shortest verse in the Bible, something to memorize when you have to memorize a
Bible verse because it is so short, “Jesus wept.” And yet it’s a reminder to us
that when all we can manage to do is to let our cries climb up our throats and
out our mouths, when we feel like yelling “Lord, if you had been here, my
brother would not have died!” even then, God is with us. Just when we thought
God was on the moon, it turns out Jesus has been sitting alongside us all
along, crying with us. What a gift, to be loved that much.
I have a cousin who was crossing the street in college when he was hit
by a car. He spent years in physical therapy, going through unbelievable pain
towards recovery. And my grandfather used to go see him, used to spend time
with him and entertain him, to try to keep his mind off the pain. And a few
years later, when my grandfather passed away, my cousin said something so
profound I feel like it belongs chiseled right above the cross, right here in
church. Our grandfather, he said, was the only person he’d ever met who
physically hurt when you hurt. He hurt when you hurt. That’s the message of
this passage of scripture: that Jesus hurts when we hurt. It’s the message of
the cross.
And lest it sound like all Jesus is good for is joining you for a cry, let
me remind you that while we are on a journey towards the cross, the journey
does not end there. Resurrection happens. Lazarus may have died. He may have
lay in the tomb for days. But he did not stay there.
There may be days in which I am prone to despair at the circumstances of
the world, or at the hypocrisy of the church, but then I remember that the
worst thing is never the last thing, that Resurrection happens, and I am
reminded that while ten thousand children may have lost funding because the
church is a mess, I am also reminded that it is not like I was sponsoring a
child through World Vision before this fiasco. I can complain all I want about
the state of the church, but if I am going to practice Resurrection I’d better
be willing to do my part. At least those who canceled their sponsorships had
sponsored a child in the first place. So
. . . I am repenting this week. I’ve gone to WorldVision.com and Stacey and
I are sponsoring a child, Diana, who was born the very same day as Emmaline. Do
I like the fact that World Vision discriminates in its hiring practices? No.
But hungry children deserve food. Jesus suffers with those who suffer. To feed
a child is to make an offering to God. I would invite you to consider doing
something like this as well, or some other act of Resurrection in the face of
death. This is what we are called to, Church. To follow Jesus. To be
Resurrection people in the face of a world that shouts “crucify him” to anyone
who steps out of line. To be Resurrection people, even when God seems far away.
I’ll end with this. In a few minutes we will share God’s feast, as we
celebrate Communion and experience this Holy Mystery. This meal does not belong
to me, or to this church, or to the denomination. The meal belongs to God, and
it is given as a gift, so that though we may sometimes feel as if God is as far
away as the moon, we are given the chance to experience that grace here, in the
sharing of the bread and the cup, here. No matter who you are or what you have
done, you are invited.
This meal is God’s gift to us, for it shows us that God loves us, even
in the midst of pain. And what a gift, to worship a God who understands our
pain, who hurts when we hurt, and who, rather than leaving us there, points to
the pain that holds us captive and says, take away the stone. Unbind her,
unbind him, and let them go. In the name of the Creator, the Christ, and the
Holy Spirit. Amen.
does pastor jeff still preach on sunday?
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